• push my flat towards being fixed
• get my computer fixed, or buy a new one
• improve my time management
• get my secret project to the point where other people can play with it (although it probably needs the next release of Debian before people can play with it properly)
• feel more in control of my life

Oops. They’re supposed to be every three months, aren’t they?

Plan:

• acquire more furniture
• register with a doctor…
• …and a dentist
• improve my time-management

Also various soppy things with which I shall not concern you here.

Haven’t actually bought the flat yet. I’m getting there.

Getting stressed over it. Not too stressed. Yet.

Plan:

• Buy flat.
• Acquire furniture.
• Acquire furnishings.
• Acquire appliances.
• Throw flatwarming.
• Feel stable.

• Actually buy the flat (or have a bloody good reason for walking away).
• Don’t get too stressed by the flat-buying process. I will not allow my mental state to deteriorate.

Yay, I switched my phone away from Virgin.

Now BUY A BLOODY FLAT, DAMMIT!

Review of my April-May-June plan:

• I got promises of mortgages but didn’t get as far as looking as a flat.
• I got back most of my deposit from the old place, which was more than I was expecting.
• Self-organisation has become less organised.
• Average mood still a bit below normal. But I have not regressed towards depression.
• I have been eating more fruit :-)

Plan going forward:

• Get as far as having an offer on a place accepted, at least.
• Transfer my phone number away from Virgin.
• Continue with the positive thinking. Property market notoriously stressful, so settle for my mental state not getting worse.
• Ask for a pay rise.
• Improve my self-organisation.

My January-February-March plan went pretty well:

• My depression is cured.
• I am a bit more organised.
• I have got to grips with work — it’s not causing me any huge stress, even when I’m stuck.
• Writing... let’s sweep that under the carpet until my subconscious decides it wants to do that.

Plan going forward:

• Flat-hunt, mortgage-hunt, etc. Starting next Monday.
• See how much of my deposit I can get back from the old place.
• Get myself more organised. The systems I’m using are better than what I had before (nothing), but I still have to explicitly remember to look in too many places. Maybe that just needs practice.
• Carry on with the positive thinking and suchlike. Although my depression is gone, I think my average mood is still a bit below normal.
• Eat more fruit.
• Chill.

Have pretty much achieved the minimum acceptable result from my October-November-December plan.

It feels like the general lack of bright daylight has been getting me down — it may really be the adjustment to weaning myself off anti-depressants. I am now off anti-depressants, and will allow myself to drink alcohol with food and occasional toasts.

Absolute top priority: Get the most out of my remaining therapy. I feel I may be slipping with this.

To follow/implement better:

• Feel The Fear
• Getting Things Done

(May look as if I am getting stuck in self-help book purgatory, but they chime with ideas that had already been bubbling under.) With special attention to the following areas:

1. Work (is involving much more mental effort than it really should)
2. Writing (would be a lot easier if I could better break things down into more easily written chunks)

I will move into my mum’s house if she moves in with her boyfriend, otherwise I am content to continue living here for now; I want to move by the end of September and buying a flat is Plan B. [Would be better to move by the end of August; anniversary of tenancy agreement expiring is early September. 2.ii.MMV.]

My July-August-September plan was going quite well. Then my boss effectively threw away about a month of my work, and has not exactly shown a sense of urgency in allowing me to do the work he wants me to do.

Conclusion: Getting back to normality with the work thing is ( very ) hard. And will involve managing my boss.

But now some positives:

• ptpp is a useful utility
• have done some writing (half a London pub story)

Goals for the rest of the year:

• manage my boss
• work hard at the therapy
• finish London pub story
• write another story (subject to inspiration hitting in time)
• start the thyme project

I am likely to come off the anti-depressants over the next two months, so will drop everything except the first two if I must. Would be nice to do that piece of art I said I’d do for Matt, but that is not so much of a priority and I shall not devote much effort to it.

My April-May-June plan has been only a partial success; while I have indeed spent more time working, I have also been more exhausted at other times.

Conclusion: Getting back to normality with the work thing is hard.

Three month plan going forward: Get back to normality with the work thing. (Anything else will be a bonus.)

I shall spend more time working at work, and not be so exhausted afterwards that all I can do in the evening is listen to the football; I wish to expand my literary and free software efforts.

(Yeah, well, if I didn't have a chance of failing it, it wouldn't be much of a target, would it?)

Following the success of my January-February-March three month plan, I now need an April-May-June three month plan.

New Year’s Resolutions are focussed on the wrong timescale. A three month plan is better.

Two of the items on my list are ideally suited to such a timescale; the other is much more of an ongoing thing: I’m not sure I can accurately put a timescale on it from this side.

1. ( Get my eyes tested )
2. ( Get my teeth checked )
3. ( Get rid of the depression )

There are other things I could wish for. A new or repaired phone is going to happen, as soon as Eclipse is open when I pop by. A pay rise would be nice; a lover would be better. My housing arrangements could be improved. But they’re not so important.